For as long as I can remember I have been overweight. I remember being 14 or 15 and comfortably fitting in size 14 and size 16 clothes. Back then though I had a lot more confidence in myself than I do now and I never cared what anyone thought of me or how I looked. Now, I’m certainly not shy and I still don’t really give a shit about what people think but I have zero self-confidence. I’m not sure when that went away but it’s slowly diminished over the years and I have never been able to regain it.
John loves me exactly how I am and I know that. Never does he mention the weight I have put on since we met and he is always so complimentary about me in every way possible. Maybe this is kind of the problem. I’ve become far too comfortable to care.
My sister is living with us at the moment while she relocates and finds a new job and she coerced me into joining the local gym with her. I can’t remember the last time I exercised and I doubt I could run down the street without feeling like I am dying. Still, I’m strangely looking forward to getting on a treadmill. I don’t think I’ll be doing much more than that for a while until I get into the swing of things.
I got myself kitted out with some new clothes to go to the gym in because I don’t think jeans really cut it. I am so in love with my new Adidas cut off joggers and I want about a million more pairs to wear around the house. I don’t know what they’re like to run in yet but they’re amazing for lounging around.
Unfortunately, finding a sports bra has been a bit of a tricky job. As a larger lady, buying bras is annoying as hell anyway but sports bras have a real job to do! It took trying a few different brands and sizes to get something that fits well enough. I think I might have given myself a black eye or two while attempting to run. If anyone knows of any great plus size sportswear brands, do let me know because I would love to try something recommended!
I started off joining the gym with my sister just for something to do to get me out of the house. However, now I’ve thought about it a bit more I really do want to get fitter for both me and my family. I want to be able to run around with Erin more. John has always loved being fit and running and I’d quite like to know why. I don’t want to still have all of the health problems I have due to being overweight.
When I joined the gym I had no intention of tracking my progress but it now seems silly not to. I’m definitely not going to be obsessed by how much I lose or what inches I lose from where but it would still be nice to see some progress. I take my Linx 820 tablet from AO.com out with me most of the time and having Word and Excel on there makes it so easy to keep track of what I have done and what I want to do next.
Did you join a gym this year or have you been going for a while? I’d love any tips for an easy start, let me know in the comments!